Scared to Love Again

A few weeks ago, I saw someone I haven’t seen in years. I honestly don't know him very well, but he really grew up since I saw him last. I thought he was cute—and unexpectedly, I got those butterflies again. It caught me off guard. The simple feeling of noticing someone and feeling something stirred up emotions I hadn’t felt in a long time. In that moment, a wave of fear followed because if I can feel something again, that means one day, I have to let someone in again. Let someone see my heart, know my story, walk beside me and that idea… is scary because I don't want to have my heart broken again.

The last time I let someone in; I was left picking up the pieces of a broken heart. It’s hard not to be afraid of that happening again. However, this is exactly where I’ve learned to lean on God. I’m working on not worrying about the future. I’m learning to surrender—not just my plans, but my heart, my desires, my fears. It’s not easy to give up control, especially when you’ve been hurt. I’ve come to realize I don’t need to know what’s ahead. That’s God’s job.

We don’t see the whole picture. We don’t hear every conversation. We don’t know what’s around the corner.

But God does.

He knows the full story—every piece of the puzzle, every twist in the road. Most importantly, He wants the best for us and that truth brings me comfort in the unknown. If you're in a season where you're beginning to feel again, where your heart is both hopeful and hesitant, you're not alone. Moving forward doesn’t mean forgetting—it means trusting. Trusting that God is still healing you. Trusting that He has something beautiful in store. Trusting that He is guiding every step. Let’s keep surrendering—day by day, moment by moment—and let God write the story because we give Him the pen, the outcome will always be better than anything we could’ve written ourselves.